Naked.

I stumbled upon this on Inside JStar's Head. I'd never read this blog before today. I think it may be a keeper.

Someone

I want someone unconditionally...

Someone that tells and shows me how special I am to them

Someone that will make sure I am ok before he is worried about him

Someone who unconditionally loves me for me

Someone who encourages me to be everything I can be

Someone who for no reason brings me flowers

Someone who believes in unconditional love and its true powers

Someone who listens and truly cares how I feel

Someone who is man enough to tell me no

Someone who is secure enough to allow his love to clearly show

Someone who will treat me like a woman should

Someone who will jump hoops to do all he could

Someone taht makes you want to rush home to

Someone nightly to make love to

Someone to hold me at night

Someone who no longer wants to argue and fight

Someone who would never put his hands on me

Someone who wouldnt dream of cheating and only desires me

Someone that cant imagine thier life without me

Someone who is prepared to stand on bended knee

Do I have that someone? Its hard to tell at this point (which unfortunately may be my unwanted answer). 

I'm willing to give so much in a relationship. Sometimes I think a little too much. I'm very forgiving and love hard. Sometimes I think a little TOO hard. I put myself in a bad place. I've been hurt too many times to count and its almost ALWAYS the same situation. I won't get into the situation itself, i'll just say it happens too often. I feel like if this one doesn't work out (and I actually have love left for another relationship), I'm letting my past be the past and not talking about it. It kinda seems like the more times I talk about it, the more times it happens. Slowly but surely they all end up doing the same thing(s). Not always the exact same thing...but enough.

Is it wrong for me to talk about NOT being in this relationship? I'm not really sure. Maybe it is. I just know that some things aren't feeling right anymore. It may just be my insecurities...but then again, I've been told not to ignore my intuition. Honestly, I cant tell the difference anymore. 

Wow. This is extremely personal. I feel a bit naked doing a post like this. After i read 'Someone,' my next thought was 'blog post.' So here it is, I guess.

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