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Photoblog Challenge: Day 3

* Day 3: Something you bought today

Today I bought myself another jar of coconut oil and some peppermint oil to add to my oils mix (to offset the smell of shea butter and tea tree oil).

Photoblog Challenge: Day 2

* Day 2: Someone you adore – 5 reasons why

MY MOMMY!

I love my moms because 

1. She never gives up on me, even when I've given up on myself.

2. She is teaching/has taught me how to be a good wife! (Before I'm a wife!)

3. She is one of the strongest people I know.

4. She's not judgmental, but never let my brother or I run wild.

5. She taught me to love Jehovah. <3 Next to life that is the most beautiful gift she could ever give me. :) 

Photoblog Challenge: Day 1

* Day 1: Self portrait – share basics/make an intro.

Hey there!

Name: Stacie

Birthday: March 19, 1990

Hobbies: Pretty much anything crafty. Jewelry making, crocheting, pastel art, makeup...etc

Significant Other?: Yes. I has me a mister :) 

Favorite Food: Currently Steelhead Trout. Deliciousness. 

ok thats enough..lol

Photoblog Challenge!

In an effort to make my blog more interesting, i'm thinking of doing a series of tags and whatnot....starting with this :)




* Day 1: Self portrait – share basics/make an intro.
* Day 2: Someone you adore – 5 reasons why
* Day 3: Something you bought today
* Day 4: What’s in your bag?
* Day 5: Your humble abode
* Day 6: A representation of your day – what do you do?
* Day 7: Something you ate today
* Day 8: Something you dislike
* Day 9: A place you visited
* Day 10: TV show you’re currently addicted to
* Day 11: Your family pet(s)
* Day 12: The town/city your reside
* Day 13: What’s in your fridge
* Day 14: Something you craved today
* Day 15: A stranger and why you chose them
* Day 16: Your closet
* Day 17: A place you went today
* Day 18: Something you collect
* Day 19: Favorite part of yourself and why
* Day 20: A hobby you have
* Day 21: Your parents
* Day 22: Your room as it is right now
* Day 23: Go some where you’ve never been & take a picture
* Day 24: Something you find funny
* Day 25: Self portrait myspace-esque
* Day 26: Where you go to relax/get away
* Day 27: Something that gives you purpose
* Day 28: A before & after shot of anything
* Day 29: An action shot
* Day 30: Another self portrait
* Day 31: Something that always makes you smile



Hopefully I can keep up with it....Day 1 today!

ProductLove- Tea Tree Oil

I have fallen in LOVE!

On Saturday, I did a bit of retail therapy. It was a bit overdue considering the drama i've been going through. *Another post will be done on Retail Therapy in itself...* Among a few other places, I went to Whole Foods looking to add a few oils to my hair regimen. I picked up another jar of coconut oil (didn't like it as much as my last jar, so I may be returning it if I can.) along with some grapeseed oil and a little bottle of tea tree eo (essential oil).

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN!!!!! I LOVE TEA TREE OIL!

After reading all the rave reviews on tea tree oil, I had to try it! I'd broken out pretty bad over the weekend and on a whim a put a few drops of it in my cleanser (noxema). Now, I know noxema already makes your face tingly, but that oil packed a powerful punch! Then, just to overdo things the way I do, I put a drop of it on both of my pimples (one of which was in that gross 'crater' phase). In the morning my blemishes were a bit less red and starting to dry up, so I put another 2 drops on them. Overkill queen that I am, I went ahead and added about 5 drops to my half bottle of astringent (clean&clear) and used it after my washes (or when I was too lazy to wash my face). Nowww on Wednesday not only are my blemishes GONE but......*drumroll please*

NO SCARS! NO SPOTS! CLEAR SKIN! winwinwinwinwinwinwinwinwinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!

I'm definitely a happy camper with my tea tree oil. I'll post my official "acne regimen" soon.

My love is too STRONG, BEAUTIFUL, HAPPY...to have thrown back in my face.

Tyler Perry does it again!

'For Colored Girls' is one of the most beautiful movies I've ever seen. If you're not a fan of poetry, you may be a bit confused by most of it. Even if you don't understand some of the words, its pretty self-explanitory.  I feel like in a sense almost every woman could identify with at least one of the characters. Thats what makes it so great. This movie is truly Tyler Perry's best work to date. 

About my Senegalese twists...but mostly hair rambling.

So last year whilst trying to transition I tried to do some twists......

FAIL!

I really hated them. The parts were big and obnoxious (to me, anyway and the color was a bad choice even though I had that color highlights. They lasted like a week and a half....then I went and got a relaxer. 

Since then my hair has been through a LOT. Most recently, I've had mucho drama that is causing my hair to come out due to stress! :( So now not only is it breaking off and only "long" in like ONE SPOT, but it seems like its coming out by the handful. The confusing thing is, my stylist has told me that since I have really thick hair that shedding shouldn't scare me at all. She even showed me how much hair came out after she'd washed and styled it a few times. 

So idk what to really think, I know that my nape area is definitely doing bad. It used to be as long as the rest of my hair. No "kitchen". Now I've got an almost 90% natural "kitchen." This is getting really frustrating for me and since my stylist had to go back to working full-time (NOT doing hair) I haven't been to her in a WHILE. I'm about 14weeks post and can do little with my hair :(. 

Right now I'm seriously debating just giving natural another try, I'm kinda confused. My hair used to be so thick and beautiful! I just don't know how its gonna look with a relaxer without cutting it A LOT now. So I'm lookin at going from about SL (shoulder-length) to maybe...chin length? My hair hasn't been that short in upwards of 10yrs. Then there's the natural route... That would mean a mini chop, too. Then no more straight styles! I love my bangs (as does mister) and i'm not sure i'm ready to part with them. Meh...my natural hair has a really pretty curl pattern (maybe 3c to 4a). Idk WHAT to do. 

lol this was supposed to be about my twists.

AAAAANYWAY

I got moms to help me try the twists again annd.....

tadaaaa!!!

They're prettiful!

So I'm gonna stick with these for a while. 

I did mom's yesterday! Her hair has been natural for years but its starting to get thin. I'm trying to help her with the growth. Right now she's got a TWA (teeny weeny afro). I'll post pics of her style probably tomorrow. 

thats all for now......l8r loves! :)

twists done!

Finished my twists! They took a while but i love them. Extra points cuz mister likes 'em too :)

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protective style

So me and the curlies are startin to fight. I'm like 10weeks post and 8 can't do anything with my hair! I've been wanting braids or twists for MONTHS now. After I couldn't find someone to do them for me, I got moms to help me start some Senegalese twists. It's taking forever, but i think they're gonna come out pretty good :). As always, if i can get a pic i'll post.

Later folks!

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Gwone with the fakeness....

So I popped in to look at my blog and check comments and whatnot and noticed one that kinda annoyed me. It was a compliment....but not to me. This made it extremely obvious that the commenter didn't read my post, cuz the pics weren't me!!!!


Bleh. I guess its not that big of a deal.

Everyone is tryin to get their blog read.

Try this one on for size...

Let's skip the "I'm-a-bad-blogger" sob story this time.
My blog.
   My posts.
       On my time.
:-) After all, if is for me (right now), right?

So today is a wash day. I'm trying to do more protective styles so that I can go longer without my relaxer (and stay away from the flat iron!). I saw this adorable hairstyle on one of my new favorite hair blogs CollegeCurlies.

Even though my hair is mostly relaxed/texlaxed, I think I can pull it off with the help of a few rods on my ends. If I ever find my SD card for my camera (or the cord to it), i'll post a few pics.

Naked.

I stumbled upon this on Inside JStar's Head. I'd never read this blog before today. I think it may be a keeper.

Someone

I want someone unconditionally...

Someone that tells and shows me how special I am to them

Someone that will make sure I am ok before he is worried about him

Someone who unconditionally loves me for me

Someone who encourages me to be everything I can be

Someone who for no reason brings me flowers

Someone who believes in unconditional love and its true powers

Someone who listens and truly cares how I feel

Someone who is man enough to tell me no

Someone who is secure enough to allow his love to clearly show

Someone who will treat me like a woman should

Someone who will jump hoops to do all he could

Someone taht makes you want to rush home to

Someone nightly to make love to

Someone to hold me at night

Someone who no longer wants to argue and fight

Someone who would never put his hands on me

Someone who wouldnt dream of cheating and only desires me

Someone that cant imagine thier life without me

Someone who is prepared to stand on bended knee

Do I have that someone? Its hard to tell at this point (which unfortunately may be my unwanted answer). 

I'm willing to give so much in a relationship. Sometimes I think a little too much. I'm very forgiving and love hard. Sometimes I think a little TOO hard. I put myself in a bad place. I've been hurt too many times to count and its almost ALWAYS the same situation. I won't get into the situation itself, i'll just say it happens too often. I feel like if this one doesn't work out (and I actually have love left for another relationship), I'm letting my past be the past and not talking about it. It kinda seems like the more times I talk about it, the more times it happens. Slowly but surely they all end up doing the same thing(s). Not always the exact same thing...but enough.

Is it wrong for me to talk about NOT being in this relationship? I'm not really sure. Maybe it is. I just know that some things aren't feeling right anymore. It may just be my insecurities...but then again, I've been told not to ignore my intuition. Honestly, I cant tell the difference anymore. 

Wow. This is extremely personal. I feel a bit naked doing a post like this. After i read 'Someone,' my next thought was 'blog post.' So here it is, I guess.

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Update

Yeah. I'm a bad blogger. Theres so much I could have posted on lately...

As I got back into the swing of having my car, it put its middle finger up at me and is as good as dead now. Need a new transmission. :-( Fortunately for me, my brother is here and has agreed to fix it for me *yayyy!*
I really need to be rollin soon.  REALLY BAD.

Crochet Update
If you follow me on Twitter, you've seen a few pics of my blanket progress. I'm just about finished now and loving it! I'm not gonna lie and say there will be a pic up soon. I'll get around to posting it eventually.


WORST BLOG POST EVER I KNOW....hopefully I can post the pics from the "photoshoot" with my sis-in-law later.


Love yall! :)
--CookieLove

Beauty Blogger Fail. :(

Yeeeahhhhh. I suck.

New plan.

I'm just gonna make this my overall blog (not focused on anything in particular...kinda.)

Queen of Procrastination

.....that's me


I have the HARDEST time getting things done if theres not an EXTREMELY pressing reason to do so. Awful, right? For example.... i've been cleaning my room for about a month. No lie. I start, make great progress, lose focus, and stop. Terrible habit. 


Sadly, this is how i've gotten about my blog. I guess i'm a bit discouraged since I don't have the camera I want. Bleh. My camera was the new hotness like 4years ago. Its really time for an upgrade.

Sony Cybershot H55

This beauty is the one I'm saving for. It has all the features that I was looking for without having to get both a camera and a camcorder. It records HD video, 14.1 megapixel  pictures, high ISO, annnnnd *dun dunnanunnun dun dun dun DUNNNNNNNNN* It has 10x optical zoom! Yup. This is the one for me. Hopefully this will improve my blog and Youtube videos tremendously. Ok..well not TREMENDOUSLY but they will be better. 


I'm also a little hesitant to do the videos cuz I come off a bit spaztic sometimes. I'm not a spaz, just a LOT fidgity. A lot of that has to do with my vision. Since I have none in my right eye, I've always leaned my head to the side to make my vision a little straighter. I can see more if my head is leaned to the side. So then in videos I look all crazy. Double Bleh. 


CROCHET!!!! I'm more addicted than I thought I would be. I'm about halfway through with my first blanket. Its all raggedy looking but I love it anyway. My mom has gotten back into crocheting herself and finished a blanket yesterday. 

Sterilite 5-Drawer Storage Cart

MAKEUP!!!! I got all of my stuff organized a few days ago. It really makes my makeup collection look pretty small.  Its not...by far. I suppose if I have a request i'll do one of those "ooh lookie at me" collection videos. Lol. I really like those, I just think sometimes folks go a little overboard. I got this 5 drawer Sterilite container. I have 2 drawer organizers that helps keep my things separated. I dig it :) I paid less than $20 for it and it came with little wheels that I can attach if I so choose.






I'll post pictures of my blanket soon. (I promise!!)










Thats all for now lovelies :)

JAM of the week

I haven't been listenin to much lately other than my iTunes, but this one caught me. I know I might be a little late, but this is my JAM right now!

Hair Journey - How it began.

So last year I had the brilliant idea to go natural. It was kind of an accident. What happened was, I went swimming with a friend (at the time I was about 6wks post-relaxer, I think). After we got out of the pool, we decided to go eat, so as a quick fix, I rinsed my hair and put in a conditioner. It was some kind of herbal essences conditioner my friend had. So i bunched up my hair in a bun and let it dry. 

Once I took my hair down it was strangely curly. Obviously, most of these curls were from it being in a bun, but my roots were all coily!!! **ahhhhhhhhhh** The next day I took some curl construct mousse (after washing it, of course) and scrunched my hair with it. TA-DAAAA!!!! Curls. Not just any curls, but beautiful super-coily curls. Thats when the decision was made that I would allow my natural curls to grow. 

May 2009

I mastered my scrunching technique and added a few more products to hold the curl and reduce frizz. All was going GREAT! I wore my curly fro 99% of the summer of 2009.

June 2009

Curl Closeup

Napptual!!!

 At 4months post I had more natural curls than I knew what to do with. By then I had done about half of a BC (big chop) and cut off about 4inches of hair. Bad idea. After that I couldn't get my pretty curls to do what I wanted them to. My relaxed ends wouldn't coil, and my natural hair wouldnt do much either. After a few weeks..I got fed up and went back to a relaxer.

Relaxed again...

After that I found a great stylist who would do my hair for next to nothing! I was thrilled :) Fast forward almost a year and here I am again. I get her to do my hair when she can, but mostly handle it myself.

Semi-unsuccessful scrunched hair

So currently I'm about 7weeks post (looks like 10, but only 7) and plan on bunning until I can get a relaxer. I cant get my hair to curl up like it used to  :-( . I'm considering trying my old method of using 2billion products at once. Lol!

:::Current hair product loves:::

• Herbal Essences Hello Hydration Shampoo and Conditioner
• Shea Butter
• Extra Virgin Coconut Oil
• Elasta QP Mango Butter
• Elasta QP H2 Moisture-Sealing Conditioner

So this is the start of my healthy hair journey. I'll work on getting my regimen together and post it soon.

First CookieVanity Video!

:-D

Obsessions of the Week :: Ankle Boots && Oxfords

Heyy Loves!

I cannot WAIT for fall so I can bust out my ankle boots! I've seen some that I absolutely adore and can't wait to buy! Here's just a few that caught my eye...

These other babies have me reaallly curious. I saw an adorable pair of grey suede oxfords and F21 for $12 (wish i'd bought them...) and since then i've been on the hunt for some cute ones. They're so classic! You really can't go wrong with these gems. Have a look-see

I know. Not quite my regular style. I'm branchin out!

July at a Glance

Listening to: Janelle Monae, B.O.B, Lupe Fiasco, Corinne Bailey Rae && Chrisette Michele

Reading: Come be my Follower; and Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus

Watching: The Choir, My Fair Wedding, 

Buying: Not much! LOL I'm pretty broke, folks

Wanting: Olympus Tough camera or Kodak Playsport camcorder

Trying: Crocheting! Going really well! *pics posted soon*

Loving: Sir Mister <3 annnd My Sonia Kashuk powder brush

Planning: My 2 businesses (CookieVanity - Makeup Artistry and StacieCakes - Home Bakery)

Making: Dutch chocolate cupcakes with Strawberry/Raspberry Cream frosting :D NOMM delicious!

Writing: Business plan, blog entires, love letters.....I like to write. 

Pimping: My Bedroom! (organizing and re-arranging and decorating!)

Inspired by: My grandma Sara. Impeccable style, she had.

A little ounce of hilarity...

Ok so this isn't normally what I would post on my blog.
  BUT THIS CRAP IS HILARIOUS!
Booty Warrior
Don't ask. Just watch it.

The laziness got me....

I'd planned on doing my first makeup tutorial for CV today.
      Bleh.
        

    I suppose it can't completely be blamed on laziness, seeing as I got quite a few things done today. Maybe I should blame it on my stellar procrastination skills. Yeah. That's more like it. Anyway, the plan is to start out with the basics and work up from there. I had some ladies who were just starting out in makeup who wanted some pointers and I figured this would really help them out. From basics, i'll move to everyday makeup, evening, clubwear, etc. I'm considering a special segment for my model ladies since their looks would differ from one photoshoot to another.

  In addition to the makeup and all the other things I plan on doing with the blog, (yes, there's MORE!) I want to feature my favorite artists or up-and-coming musicians/artists. Idk. Maybe I should save that, but i'm considering it. Already had someone in mind for the spot.

   As for my crocheting, its just goin. I learned the basic chain stitch, but thats as far as I got. Tried to get moms to show me how to continue and she jacked my crochet hook and yarn and has went INNNN on an blanket. Soo...looks like I'll be letting her take over that and I'll just get some more yarn. Lol.

Guess that's all. For now I go in search of grub.
---Cookies

What's your favorite movie quote?

Nights like this, I wish, raindrops would FA-A-A-A-ALLL!!!
-Eddie King Jr, The Five Heartbeats

Ask me ALMOST anything

A 'To-Do' list of sorts...

   One of my favorite bloggers that I mentioned a few posts back had a really cool idea *at least I think it was hers lol*. She made a list of 101 things that she wanted to do in the next year. Well, I know I probably could sit here and make the entire list now, but I think instead i'll make individual posts so I can talk a little more in-depth about the things I want to do if need be (like the crochet post).

  I know this blog is totally gonna be all over the place...but so what. It's my blog :-) I would like to add bits about my hair journey and just random thoughts and whatnot.That's what its for, right? Maybe every now and then i'll do a post thats a little more personal, but I really would like to keep some parts of my life private. If anyone has questions for me, I'll be adding a question box to the sidebar. Feel free to use it.

   (random side thought...these are the worst paragraphs of my life.)

I added a few 'tabs' to the top of my page to somewhat keep my posts separated. Idk how that's gonna work out. We'll see. I suppose I'll get a makeup tutorial of some kind done this week. Also look for an update on my crocheting sometime next week.---Maybe I should add somewhere 'Upcoming Posts'

I babble.

--Cookies

CraftyCookie

    As you may know, I love all things crafty. I make some of my own jewelry, I love makeup, cake decorating, and all other kinds of hands-on stuff you can learn to do at Michaels or Hobby Lobby. So far, most of those things (ok....all) i've learned to do from books, but mostly good 'ol Youtube. It started with beading, then makeup. I took a cake deco class, but honestly probably learned more on youtube. [Check out my favorite cake youtuber SeriousCakes] So, of course, I plan on being educated on my newest obsession via YT as well.

    My current endeavor is to learn to crochet. What inspired me was seeing my sister-in-law's AWESOME multi-colored winter hat (complete with ultra long sides that you can use as a scarf). It absolutely blew my mind and I immediately wanted to figure out how to make one of my own (cuz I know she aint uppin it...lol). Since its almost August, I figure i've got about 4 months before i'll actually have to wear a hat like that, which means I have 4 months to master the art of crochet.

smexy crochet top

I've already started my research on how much this is gonna cost me and whatnot. Hopefully, it won't hurt my pocket too much. I never realized quite how many of the things I love are crocheted. I'll never pay $7.99 for a  crochet hat again! Here I was thinkin I was gettin a deal at the beauty supply store. I figure I'll start small and work my way up to socks and then maybe small blankets (obviously, gotta get my hat done) and eventually i'll work my way up to the super nice stuff like this crochet top(right)

Better than that to me are these fantabulously adorable little crocheted cupcakes (above, slowbunny). OMG I need to get to learning, because I need these little cuties in my life!  So, needless to say, I've decided this is how i'll be spending my free time now (when i'm not working on the blog, or baking, or doing someone's makeup).

I'm so excited! ^_^

---Cookies

What Happened to Your Eye?

I get this question almost every time i'm out. Sometimes people won't ask but simply stare at it as if they and my right eye are having some kind of intimate conversation that my left eye isn't in on. Annoying. I figured eventually i'd have some of my followers ask me about it (a few on YouTube already have.) Might as well address it, right?

What I was told is that when I was a baby (well, fetus) that my right eye didn't develop correctly. No, I can't see out of it. Its really not a big deal at all. I learned to deal with having less vision than almost everyone else and to adapt. I do all the things a normal 20something would do. See? No biggie.

As for the ignorant people who decide its a fun thing to make fun of.....who cares? Obviously, when I was a kid these people REALLY got to me and made me a little mean, but over time that wore off. As i've gotten older the stupid people aren't as vocal about their stupidity (cuz i'm not dumb, I see that look on your face jerk). Lol. Its whatever.

I really love my eyes! They really set me apart and make me different. Its great now because a lot of times I have people tell me how beautiful they think it is which is a real ego boost :-) The fun part is, since my eyes are 2 diff shapes I can see how certain makeup looks on different eye shapes without having to work on someone else. Saves a lot of time.

Maybe one of these days i'll do some actual research on my "condition" or call up my optometrist and ask a few questions.


--Cookies

So out of it....

I've been meaning to do a few posts, but Idk what the fuzz is wrong with me. I just really haven't been feelin it lately. When I get myself together, i've got a lot to post about. Till then...sorry

---Cookies

iCookie

Top 10 Most Played Songs on My iTunes

10. Crazy For You by Adele

9. High Hopes in Velvet Ropes by The Cab

8. Trouble Sleeping by Corinne Bailey Rae

7. That's Just My Way by Eric Benet

6.  Lies by The Black Keys

5. Enchantment by Corinne Bailey Rae

4. The Blackest Lily by Corinne Bailey Rae

3.  Fixing My Hair by Priscilla Renae

2. Paris Nights/ New York Mornings by Corinne Bailey Rae

1. Closer by Corinne Bailey Rae

As you can see I've been on a CBR kick this week. Can't really help it, she's my favorite artist. 

ThriftyCookie (UPDATED 8/3)

I found a great article about thrift shopping on TheFrisky earlier today. It was great and exactly what i'd been looking for. A new thrift store opened in the area and i've really been wanting to check it out for a while. Since I have nothing else on the agenda today, I figured me and moms could go and check it out. Hopefully this CityThrift turns out to be a little more than a glorified Goodwill. Don't get me wrong, I love me some Goodwill and have found some nice stuff there...just lookin for a little MORE. What I really would love is to find a Goodwill (or any other thrift store) tucked away in a nice rich neighborhood. You know, one of those neighborhoods with the spoiled wives and daughters who throw out their clothes every few months or so for the newest shiny things from Dolce&Gabbanna. That would be awesome!!! ^_^

I suppose if I find any real goodies i'll post a few pics. [[7/25 UPDATE:: Found a few things. Will post pics when my camera stops buggin]] 

I didn't find a lot, but I guess what I did get is worth posting. 

Finally found some overalls! Size 12 for $5.99

Found these at an Outlet for 99cents a piece.

Sexy lace top!!!! Size PL for $3.99

Thats it. Can't wait to go again!

                                                                                








 







----->> Cookies

This..right here...is my...SWAGG!

If you know me and know me well, you know that my first love (well, after football) is MAKEUP!!! I've been into makeup since I was about 16, and I have to say that i've gotten pretty dang good at it!!! Of course, it fits right in with the rest of the artsy stuff that I like to do. I've been told by a few people that I should get on ModelMayhem and offer my services. Once my car gets fixed, I'm doing it!

Here lately I haven't been doing much as far as makeup goes. The bf likes the natural look (which is a relief when we go out. Pop on some mascara and GO!). I suppose since right now I have a boatload of free time i'll work on some looks and post a few. Right now i'm off to work on a look for a photoshoot on Sunday. :) 

Later folks!

----Cookies----

SizeDilemma

I love to shop. The problem i've been having for a while is that right now i'm smack-dab in the middle of the sizes. Obviously, I've been out of Juniors sizes for a while and graduated to Misses (yay?). Problem is, I'm more curvy than the average 12/14Misses size....BUT 14Womens is too big. What kind of bullshiggity is that?!

  Here lies the problem. Most of the time, I end up with the over-sized womens jeans and make up for my smaller waist with a belt. I really hate doing that >_<. I suppose I could have bigger problems in the clothing area. I know there's stuff to fit me....I just gotta find it! I found that in the brands that carry Womens sizes, I can usually get away with a 0X <---not to be confused with OX. I'm not an ox. That would be ZERO-ECKS! lol. I remember when I first saw the tag on an I.N.C top I bust out laughing. Just cuz we plus-sized don't mean you gotta call names!!! LOL. I digress.

  I was thrilled to find REAL-SIZED bloggers. CURVESandCHAOS is one of my faves!!! Curvaceous in the City is another love :). Blogs like these are really motivating. These are just real girls in a skinny world bloggin. Good stuff.

I'm hoping to use this blog (in addition to everything else) as a way to track my weight-loss. I should be going to the gym today and doing the dreaded weigh-in. *dun dun DUNNNN!* I'll let ya know how it goes. :)

--->Cookies

Grandma. Daddy

MEMORIES.  

Today I looked through my grandma's closet. It wasn't the first time, and I'm sure it won't be the last. I saw her great shoes, classic purses, and crisp dress shirts. Come to think of it...I didn't even SEE a t-shirt! Grandma Sara had great style. I'd like to think some of it was passed down to me, too :-)

  Man...I miss her so much! I mean, I knew I would but dang! Sometimes its hard to be in her house. Other times I spend the whole time in her room looking through her closet or lying in her bed. I miss her playing in my hair right after I get it done. She was always so proud of me. Even when I screwed up!

    I wish I could talk to her. I hate I didn't get a chance to introduce her to my future husband. She would have loved him. One of the last times she talked she asked me when I was getting married. It hurt because I knew if it wasn't soon that she wouldn't be there to see it. Now she won't. I look forward to introducing both her and my Daddy in the new system. They'll both be so proud of me and the woman I've become (by then).

Talking about daddy is a whole 'nother ball game. It's been ten years since he's been here. Death sucks. He didn't get to see me go to Middle School, or High School....heck not even 5th grade. Losing daddy hit hard but not until later. I understood he was gone and what had happened (I was 10), but it all somehow seemed unreal. It seemed like he was just gone and he'd be back in a month or so. Of course, that didn't happen.

I've learned to cope with losing them both...I guess. I suppose I'm doing better than most considering.

Take my heart, but please don't break it

Sunday was the Mister and I's 6month anniversary.
No. We're not married (not yet!). When you're dating, every month is a Celebration Snitchessss. Pardon my random edited Kanye moment. 


Anyway.


We had our best date EVER! My honey made reservations and told me to wear a dress. For a while I wasn't sure where we were going, but i'd figured it out by the time we made it to the area. We went to TEXAS de BRAZIL!

The restaurant is really really nice. I told him it reminded me of the places in New York that I stared into cuz I was too broke to go inside. I felt like a rich lady! The way it's set up is theres a 50+ item "salad bar" in the middle of the restaurant. Theres very little salad, obviously. There was however everything from Lobster Bisque to smoked Provolone cheese and sushi. After the salad bar they start bringin around the meat!!! The best 2 that we had were Flank Steak and a Bacon-Wrapped Fillet Mignon <---AMAZING!

We wrapped up our date at home watching fireworks. After all, it was July 4th. My backyard neighbors always do a big production. Best date ever. I love me some him!!


---Cookies <3

Feelin Good!

It's a new dawn, it's a new day, it's a new life....for me. And i'm feelin' GOOD!

Just got back from the gym. It feels great to be gettin' back into the swing of things. Earlier today Sir Mister gave me one of those kick-in-the-arse pep talks. I gotta say, I was NOT feeling it at all when he gave it to me, but after letting it marinate for a while, I really do appreciate it. Its just what I needed to kick off my better self. I really love him for that :-)


On one of my favorite blogs KissesfromKryssie, Krys says that it may be better to set a body model (in so many words. Can't find the original post :-( ) and not focus so much on numbers. I thought that was pretty genius! The model I chose was Toccara Jones. I LOVE that chicks body! She is a plus-sized model only because of the industry's deformed image of beauty. Check her out!

So...that's my goal.

TheCookie--not like Steve Harvey explains it

<<< That's me.
        StacieMichelle,
           staciecakes,
              babycakes, but mostly...
Just Cookies.






I suppose I'll do a quick 'about me' to sum me up, although anyone reading this should know me pretty well. I'm one of those artsy, all-over-the-place chicks who hasn't quite got her head on right yet. I'm gettin there though and my blog will help me track my progress :) I'm 20yrs old and I love to bake. Sadly, right now, that's about it.

I'm gettin myself together. These last few months have been the best/worst months of my life. On the higher note, I fell in love with a wonderful MAN (cue automated 'AWWW!'). I was hating my job and loving my honey and couldn't ask for much more. Then.....BLAM! Car goes out. POW! Job goes out. So then i'm broke and stuck at home. Suckslikeducks. Me being the worry-wart 'dear-GOD-i'm-gonna-die' person I am.....I freaked out. I was a bit ULTRABUMMED to find that I couldn't afford to fix the car.


Fastforward a few months. My grandma's health was plummeting, and it was really getting to me. It's been 10years since I lost my padre to lung cancer and I could feel it coming for gma. Cue depression. Have ya caught on to the 'worst' yet? Nope. After breaking down and having the 'put your game face on' talk from moms, I thought i'd be ok. WRONG. Mommy (which is what I called my Gma) wasn't going out without a fight, but I hated to watch it. Needless to say, after 50+ years, the cancer won. Cue DEEP depression. 


So now it's time for me to start my life over. It's time for me to quit with the 'poor,pitiful me' and get it together. Hence the title UnbreakableCookie. I can't let the things that happen to me break me down. Please! If my daddy or grandma saw me i'd be catchin hell. So...I gotta put my game face on and get out there.


Let's do it...

A little bit of this...a littabitta dat!

Ok so i'm gonna try the blog thing again. (What is this like round 3?)

Promise this time it'll stick.

I've got quite a bit of time on my hands right about now, so why not? I haven't decided if i'll update daily, but at least a few times a week. This blog is pretty much an overall "me" blog. Theres no specific theme. I suppose I should get started then...First up, I guess I should explain my title...